omg srsly

like omg that has to be a joke
no really
OMG WHAT
TELL ME
NO SERIOUSLY
are you for REAL?
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

so yeah
I went to my first real sleepover two days ago
it was the classic
rows and rows and rows of girls in their sleeping bags carpeting the basement floor
maybe an aerial view would have shown some sort of subconcious pattern
but I wasn't on the ceiling
so it just seemed like randomly strewn lumps of people to me

there was a movie playing
I didn't see a single scene of it
you go to the movies to watch movies
at a sleepover, you have to whisper whisper whisper shriek whisper until 3 o'clock in the morning
duh

that's what I did
I'll admit
OMGOMG SERIOUSLY NO TELL ME YOU'RE KIDDING NO WAY WHAAAATTT
is all you could hear
but
if you knew how to listen
you would hear more
well there's this guy I really like but...
it may have sounded like stupid shallow talk about boys
but
if you knew how to listen
you would hear about nights spent sleepless in tears
anguish endured every day as raw wounds are torn open again and again
the resilience of a downtrodden hope
broken hearts being picked up and pieced back together
the courage it takes to care about someone else
don't cry, honey, it's okay, really, it's gonna be okay...
it may have sounded like empty cliche
but
if you knew how to listen
you would hear understanding
the shared pain that every girl has suffered
endless support, a network of friendhip to fall back on
true caring beyond giggling and chatter
love that is unconditional
well I really like him but basically I hate guys...
it may sound like a dumb oximoron
but
if you knew how to listen
you would hear the terror and confusion
frustrated feelings crushed under self control
self-denial creating a walled-up heart steeped in bitterness
tentative stirrings, disturbing because they shake down all those defenses
the green shoot of love that refuses to die
it will work out, I really believe it, don't be afraid, we're here for you...

in the dark basement
flickering screen in the background
muted voices of other girls floating lazily by
the lingering scent of bagel pizza
lying in a warm cocoon
surrounded by so much love
I believed it too
I believed it would work out
I believed in happily ever after